Eliza Fenwick to Mary Hays, at Rev. Kingsfords,1 Wepham, near Canterbury, Friday, 30 August [1799].2 Friday Augst 30 Can I tell you – No I cannot to
my satisfaction describe to you the lively pleasure I feel in beginning once
more to converse with you after daily experiencing many uneasy sensations lest
your quick sensibility should misrepresent the nature of my silence. Mr
Fenwick has had more translation I, you know, am ^then^ employed as amanuensis
but there my occupations ended not for Eliza has been very very ill & to
compleat my sum of horrifying occupations my little maid Betty who at the best
of times is of little use became a burthen instead of a service for she also
was very ill. Every morning I promised myself I should that day find an
opportunity to write to you & every evenings disappointment added to my
fears of your conjectures. How are you dear Mary? Are you doubting The bad weather must have greatly lessened the pleasure of your excursion I hope it did not prevent the visitor3 for whose approach you were so fondly & anxiously watching when you last wrote to me. I love you too well not to be sometimes very angry Your indefatigable good tempered Beau remains for your consolation. Henry Robinson is still, & likely to continue, among us but I suppose he writes to you & I am telling old news. Miss Braddock desired I would give her love to you She has taken a fancy little shop in Woodstock Street Oxford road I really believe it will be a comfortable provision for her. She has a few friends who will interest themselves for her & she has chosen a means through which every body can if they will serve her. Mrs Reverley4 stills sacrifices to a tight drawn etiquette she receives no one, she visits no one. I am half afraid that when she is disposed to associate with her former acquaintance she may have some resistance or resentment to encounter from those with whom she lives who having been accustomed to such strict retirement may be apt to think a breach of it an enormity. How much longer shall you stay
in Kent? Walk ride & visit to the utmost that you ^may^ lay up a store of
health & spirits to bear you through the winter in which I suppose as usual
you will seek to enjoy hours of pleasure that almost always I think Adieu my dear Mary Mr Fenwick joins in assuring of our true unalterable affection Eliza Fenwick I ought to have told you that Eliza is a great deal better yet still pale & languid – Among other of my businesses I forgot to say that I had at the intervals I could scratch fifty little jobs to do for Fanny Gerald which could not be delayed as she has at last left me. Her absense will certainly be an advantage if I can make any thing of my time. Once more fare thee well. Our kind Compliments to your Jolly host & fair hostess. Address: Miss Hays | Mr Kingfords Wepham | near Canterbury Postmark: Illegible 1 Rev. Sampson Kingsford (1740-1821) was the chief minister at the General Baptist meeting in Black Friars, Canterbury, from 1771 until his death on 27 August 1821. References later in the letter to Kent and her "Jolly host & fair hostess" are to the Kingsfords. For more on Kingsford, see his entry in the Biographical Index. 2 Fenwick Family Papers, Correspondence, 1798-1855, NY Historical Library; Wedd, Fate of the Fenwicks 6-7; not in Brooks, Correspondence. 3 Another reference by Fenwick to William Frend. The following paragraph playfully suggests Crabb Robinson as her replacement beau. 4 Maria Reveley, Fenwick's friend and now a widow. |
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